[ Part of him wants to ask, in case there's some chance that Chang Geng hasn't listened to the message. "Just some nonsense I sent, just go ahead and delete it." Honestly, if it had been something physical, like a note, he'd find a way to steal and burn the thing. But this powerful technology defies his lifetime's honed talents at deceit and subterfuge.
But once Chang Geng pulls him close and kisses him, he feels certain that there's no way Chang Geng didn't hear it. Part of him sighs, inwardly. How embarrassing. In that moment, he'd poured out his soul.
In that moment...
...he'd steeled himself to leave behind all the joys he'd experienced here, in this place, in exchange for the horrors of war. Chang Geng had been stabbed when he'd arrived here, and despite the boy's assurances, he can't be completely sure Chang Geng will recover from that. Even if he survives, a thousand dangers face them both, both on and off the battlefield. Gu Yun's little fantasy about a holiday house in Jiangnan notwithstanding, it's quite possible the only peaceful days they'll ever enjoy together are here. Despite this, he made up his mind and strode into the rift, without holding Chang Geng for what might have been the last time.
But Gu Yun's heart isn't made of iron. Like any other person, he has feelings; and though he's had to learn, over the years, to set them aside, that doesn't mean he's unaffected by them. So when Chang Geng's arms close around him, when he feels the sweet sensation of his lover's lips against his, all that compressed regret and grief of parting—and relief that it wasn't real—comes crashing down on him all at once.
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But once Chang Geng pulls him close and kisses him, he feels certain that there's no way Chang Geng didn't hear it. Part of him sighs, inwardly. How embarrassing. In that moment, he'd poured out his soul.
In that moment...
...he'd steeled himself to leave behind all the joys he'd experienced here, in this place, in exchange for the horrors of war. Chang Geng had been stabbed when he'd arrived here, and despite the boy's assurances, he can't be completely sure Chang Geng will recover from that. Even if he survives, a thousand dangers face them both, both on and off the battlefield. Gu Yun's little fantasy about a holiday house in Jiangnan notwithstanding, it's quite possible the only peaceful days they'll ever enjoy together are here. Despite this, he made up his mind and strode into the rift, without holding Chang Geng for what might have been the last time.
But Gu Yun's heart isn't made of iron. Like any other person, he has feelings; and though he's had to learn, over the years, to set them aside, that doesn't mean he's unaffected by them. So when Chang Geng's arms close around him, when he feels the sweet sensation of his lover's lips against his, all that compressed regret and grief of parting—and relief that it wasn't real—comes crashing down on him all at once.
He kisses back, fervently, blinking back tears. ]